Why did Fergus even consider what he did in Outlander?

Outlander Season 6 has seen Fergus on a downward spiral. It all led to one major moment at the end of Episode 3, but why would he even consider what he did?

Caution: There are major spoilers from Outlander Season 6, Episode 3 in this post.

We’re getting straight into the spoilers from the episode. If you haven’t watched it yet and have avoided reading the books, now is the time to click away.

Fergus has been on one hell of a downward spiral over the course of the first two episodes of Outlander Season 6. The birth of his new son could have been a joyful moment, but Henri-Christian is a dwarf. Marsali loved the baby, but Fergus is scared. He’s grieving the loss of the “normal” baby he expected.

Fergus knows what the life for a dwarf could be like. It’s no reason he’s scared considering what he saw in Paris. But it wasn’t until Marsali admitted to killing Lionel Brown that he seemed to think that he wasn’t needed at all. It all led to Fergus contemplating suicide.

Why would Fergus even consider suicide in Outlander?

This is a huge moment. We have to remember the time period. Suicide is one of the biggest sins a person can make. Catholics would believe the soul would be left in Purgatory or even Hell because of the action. Their souls would never be allowed into Heaven. There is no coming back from someone taking their own life.

For Fergus to even think about suicide is huge. He doesn’t consider his immortal soul at this point. He’s just focused on the people in his life.

Many would say that suicide is selfish. However, we hear why Fergus considers suicide at this moment. It’s a reason that many people think even now when it comes to taking their own life. Fergus believes it’s the most selfless thing that he can do.

He makes it clear that Marsali can remarry. She can have a man who does have two hands, and who can protect her in an attack. The children would have a man in their life who can be worthy of their love and do things for them. The family would have a man who can do a man’s work. He believes that the best thing for everyone is for him to be out of all their lives, and he believes it has to be permanent.

Fortunately, Jamie was there to see Fergus before he went through with it. Now it’s time for Fergus to heal, and everyone is sure to keep their eye on him. Roger and Young Ian would be the best people to help Fergus right now since they’ve both had some dark thoughts, and Young Ian even tried to go through with it until Roger stopped him.

What did you think of the scene between Fergus and Jamie at the end of Outlander Season 6, Episode 3? What do you hope to see for Fergus moving forward? Share your thoughts in the comments below.

Outlander airs Sundays on STARZ.